He Loves Me

Now I have proof that Mayson loves me that I can use against him ten years from now when he is too cool to say he loves his aunt!! My sister took my camera last night to his game so she could get him playing and I guess they decided on an impromptu movie making session before hand.

Observations, Sort Of.

Were it not for baseball my time spent outdoors would be very minimal.

I may be slightly too involved in my nieces and nephews lives.

That may or may not be healthy for me.

It is really good for them.

I don't think I depend on them for fulfillment.

My life would be less fulfilling without them.

I don't think those are contradictory statements.

I miss church.

I don't miss church.

Again, not contradictory, just different aspects bring out different feelings.

I miss the closeness I felt with God a year ago.

I don't spend enough time with Him.

That seems strange since He is never actually absent from me.

I feel alone sometimes when surrounded by people.

Sometimes, I long to be alone.

I ache to be the mother of a living child.

I would give up everything I own in order to be just that.

Other people's children can not fully fill that void.

It's weird to be divorced for six years and suddenly get an email from your ex.

It's also weird to not date for over two years.

I would have been a good robot.

Except for the following orders part.

Life is not simpler on auto pilot.

It isn't even less painful.

It is less intense.

That's not a good thing.

Dulled pain also means all other feelings are dulled.

This includes happiness, love, peace and the like.

This is a stupid post.

I was hoping it would jog my brain into aliveness.

It isn't working and I totally made up that word.
(spell check didn't highlight it, maybe I didn't make it up.)

Brainstorming is supposed to help, what the freakity freak.

I hate that I get extremely tired around 2:00 p.m. everyday.

Perhaps if I went to bed before midnight that wouldn't happen.

I have to go now.

It's time for baseball.

Peace out.

So You Know I'm Not Dead

Mayson was a rock star in his t-ball game last night. While he can be obnoxious and a tad rotten from time to time, he is also hilarious and one of the sweetest humans I know. None of my other nephews get up to bat but turn around just before to say 'I love you Steffie!' Way too sweet!

I am a terrible blogger these days but all too often I just don't have much to say. I follow quite a few blogs and I am constantly amazed that all these people keep coming up with interesting things to say day after day. Crazy.

Have I ever mentioned how strange I find it that Christians often are far more petty, gossipy, calloused, judgemental and just down right cold, then our non christian fellow human beings. It's a sad fact. Seemingly random, but sad just the same!

I am now off to my third ball game of the week. One more and we'll be done until next Monday. :) I am taking Blayne, Malachi and Caleb to Six Flags Saturday so I imagine I will be dead tired just in time for softball practice Sunday!!

What's Up

My nieces got to cheer with the 'real' cheerleaders at their hometown football game last Friday. I think they had a blast. Natalee didn't really look like she knew what she was doing (she's the one turning the opposite direction etc.) but it was funny if nothing else. Sorry the video is shaky but people kept running into me!

I am off to another baseball game tonight. We have another tomorrow night and then a tournament this weekend. My guess is that the tournament is going to get hurricaned out!

Brayton turns 8 on Sunday. I can't believe that baby boy is growing up. I am trying to think of something else to get him. At six flags last weekend Blayne and I picked up a figurine in his team's colors from the glass blower's shop and a toy from one of the other stores. I also found him a Texas Ranger's jersey and had his name embroidered on the back. I think he's going to love that even if the Ranger's aren't his favorite anymore!


And before I sign off, because we must never forget, I'll leave you with these:

My Nephew the Super Star

Ok so I am a terrible videographer, at least with my new camera. I am learning that I am pressing the stop button way too soon, and perhaps not starting quite soon enough. My bad! So on the first video I cut off the actual hit as well as the slide into home, but you get the point!!



Home Run!!!





Pickin' 'em off!






Hope you enjoyed my little videos. I am sure I will have plenty more in the next few weeks. I am off to game number three this week, well game 8 if you count the tournament shown above!

Rock Stars

Brayton's team got 2nd place in his tournament. We were all so proud of how well the boys played. Brayton was definitely a rock star. He struck kids out, picked them off when they were trying to steal and even got a home run!

I forgot my camera today but I plan on posting videos soon, you know you can't wait!

I took Blayne and two of his friends to Six Flags yesterday. It was scorching hot but fun just the same. And now I'm back at work....and it's end of month time....and I'm way behind. No bueno!!