Into the Depths: Big Fat Chicken

Thursday, August 24, 2006

Big Fat Chicken

Well, the meeting is scheduled. Eleven A.M. tomorrow morning. I feel nauseous. I am so friggin' terrified. What am I so afraid of, you may ask. Let me enlighten you. He could say "Seriously? Did you seriously think we would let you join our church?" Or, maybe something like this, "Yeah, I can see why you think you are so evil." Or, perhaps, "You really are a hopeless cause."

Yes, I realize my fear is somewhat irrational. Yet there it is, gnawing away in the pit of my stomach. I started shaking when he called this afternoon, and I haven't stopped as of yet. I am a big fat chicken. I could just go in and spout off the Roman's road and show that I have the answers and I'm a little holy roller. However, where would that get me? I'm such a chicken, did I mention that yet?

So, now you know. The interview is scheduled, I am afraid. We'll see, I guess.


Blogger LauraLou said...

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your path straight. (Proverbs 3:5-6) This is one of those verses everyone knows and has heard a million times, but do we ever truly understand it to the point that we make it applicable to our own lives?

GOD is taking you down this path...there is something He wants you to see and understand about Him so trust HIM, not yourself or your feelings or your emotions, but trust God.

My husband is a pastor so I can say this to you with complete confidence - There is NOTHING to fear! God uses not only His Word, but also other people to speak to our hearts, and evidently there is something God wants you to hear (or hear again...He may have already spoken to you through scripture and wants you to hear it again!)

God loves you and has a plan for your life...give it to Him and let Him have control and REST in His arms!

Praying for you right now!

August 24, 2006 10:18 PM  
Blogger Bttrfly1976 said...

Thank you for that, Laura, sincerely. Your prayers at this point are coveted.

August 24, 2006 10:35 PM  
Blogger Paulette said...

Hey Stephanie, I see you have met my adopted sister Laura? She is pretty awesome. Laura's mom and dad rescued me as a 13 year old in the middle of all my abuse in Tampa Florida. They took in a scared young girl and allowed me to be a part of there family all these years.
Laura is a fine young woman, I am glad you connected with her. Both laura and her mom have been instrumental in helping me heal from a horrible past.
I will be praying for you. You have a right to be a part of an awesome worship experience. I can soooo see God at work here.
Cant wait to hear how it goes.

August 24, 2006 11:07 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

RC again,
I agree with Laralou, don't lean to your own understanding. Your understanding is a by-product of your past. Our past is the enemy's main tool to throw us off course. Isaiah 43:18-19 18"Do not call to mind the former things,
Or ponder things of the past. 19"Behold, I will do something new,Now it will spring forth; Will you not be aware of it? I will even make a roadway in the wilderness,Rivers in the desert.

Stick close to the Shepard. He will always go after the one, and lead them back to the fold. The Shepard will never hold you only to crush the guildence and protection he gives. He will never watch you stray off to the point of self-destruction. He loves his sheep unconditonally.

August 25, 2006 9:54 AM  
Blogger LauraLou said...

Waiting to hear how your visit went...
I know God is at work to fulfill His purpose in your life. Can't wait to hear what He shows you!

August 25, 2006 4:08 PM  
Blogger LiteratureLover said...

Hey, you went. So you're more like a soldier than a chicken.

August 26, 2006 8:49 AM  
Blogger Bttrfly1976 said...

one of those really wimpy soldiers who run and hide when the bullets start flying??

August 26, 2006 8:58 AM  

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